Monday, October 22, 2018

Bodily Pleasure, Porn, Masturbation And Identity...

In this article I'm speaking the truth as I don't speak in opposites, no matter what colour(s) I wear or what they mean. Sincerity before polarity has always been my motto and this post is certainly no different in that regard.

Now that I've got your attention. How do you feel about those topics versus the actual activities that they represent?

For most people it is a hidden guilty pleasure. That is something that they might deny profusely yet engage in at some point in time. I mean when it comes to our private intimate time whether it involves a partner or not, do we really have to answer to anyone?

I believe that we don't unless of course it is violating the law in some way, especially if it involves the exploitation of a minor or something of that form then it is the business of others. In any other case it really is nobody else's business but your own. Unfortunately we happen to live in a time when there are a great many people who believe that it is their (religious?) duty to stand against such things, despite the fact that within the Bible, you'll find incest, sodomy, bigamy, polygamy, polyandry, murder, infanticide, fratricide, matricide, patricide, prostitution, decapitation and many other forms of sex and violence yet masturbation is a sin. Slavery and prostitution aren't even dealt with as "sins" within the Bible, yet if you engage in selfish self pleasure, you're likely going to hell. There seems to be a slight bit of a problem there in terms of the morality of that entire concept.

Not to mention the fact that there are people in society who elect themselves to police this concept of sin in others even where it violates the law or a person's Human Rights most of whom seem to be above the law. What is it that drives people to embrace idea that a special "Church Police" should exist that in a country where representation, due process and the rule of law are among the most prominent deciding factors in the direction of said society?

I am not speaking purely at my own frustration and experience with such people, as I'm certain that there many people who likely find their privacy compromised by such zealots. One of my main reasons for speaking on this matter is the question how did we come to the idea that the body and anything pleasurable is an instrument of sin and the devil? I mean when you consider that the entirety of the blame for the downfall of human kind was placed squarely upon the shoulders of Women, then it should become a little clear that there is an underlying theme at play here that is more likely about power and oppression than anything else.

It starts with the idea that right from the get go, we're in the bad books with our creator and as such we have to earn our way back into the good books according to some rules he set down for us. Whereby accepting that whole premise really enslaves humanity to paying for crimes that were ultimately blamed upon the first Woman. The instruments of our reproduction are also culprits, leading the way to sinful deeds that despite their being the ultimate source of life, are somehow connected with being bad. Another debt whereby we're born in sin, and of course to one that if you subscribe you'll be ever enslaved paying that debt for which the only way you can be freed is by accepting another facet of that belief as your savior.

So what about all of the indigenous people around the world who were born into completely different set of faiths and beliefs that treated Women with reverence and equality while preserving the balance of nature? Its ironic that these people had a religion forced upon them that immediately put them in debt with their creator and was the front line in the battle for the new world and colonialism and the enslavement of the existing population. That might sound a little bit extreme or even zealous, but certainly no more so than the opposite side of the spectrum that spurred it.

The idea that we are immediately indebted upon birth for no fault of our own, and that we ultimately haven't the full say of how we use our bodies seems a little circumspect to me as that is a form of real control and enslavement of people. This is something of which Women have long been aware but were seldom backed up to acquire their own rights until as recently as the last hundred and fifty hundred years while their reproductive and erogenous zones were considered one of the sources of "sin". One of the most conspicuous forms of violation there are is when someone is denied the rights of their own body. That when we engage in the pleasures of the body with or without a partner that we are somehow committing a spiritual crime. Yet slavery and prostitution are completely alright and not even counted as "sins" according to the same belief.

What about the reasoning behind why self pleasure is considered a sin by many religions? It really depends upon the religion itself and the current stance that many religions have taken with regard to the issue. For instance some Western religions (Christianity) regard it as one of the worst sins that one can commit, as it is selfish excess taking for granted and the means of the creation of another human life.

Some other Western and Eastern (Catholic Christianity and Islam) religions believe that the production of semen and the orgasm itself is the expelling of "soul stuff" ie the spirit component of human consciousness and life and that when we do so without a partner or with a partner and without procreation that we are condemning this "soul stuff" to exist without a body to inhabit and therefore causing it to temporarily inhabit the bodies of different living human beings.

Other Eastern religions regard it as a distraction to the path of enlightenment as it is of the flesh and therefore keeping our existence confined to Samsara (in Buddhism otherwise known as the reincarnation cycle).

Other Eastern religions (Taoism in particular) and Judaism regard it as imbalanced (masturbation) in terms of the the blocking and the releasing of bodily energy, which is responsible for life. According to Taoism the body will recover this energy fairly quickly in some schools of thought while some of the more traditional views are that the body must recover this energy from outside sources, that replenish the balance through active diet and exercise. In terms of sex between partners, Taoism regards it as alright because both bodies are balancing the energy needs of both parties (Yin Yang energy) and that it can be healthy for the body in balance.

In yet other beliefs like Wicca, the human body and its wonderful senses are considered blessings and that human beings should spend much time enjoying that aspect of our being, either alone or (preferably) with a partner.

Some beliefs also regard that sexuality and orgasm is a means of the release of accumulated stress and that it is quite healthy for the body, as during such experiences a person's body produces many anti-carcinogens not to mention endorphins, dopamine and serotonin which are what give a person that feeling of being "high" from sex or exercise. In this sense it could become an addiction in much the same way that narcotics that cause the body to produce excess levels of dopamine which could be dangerous in cases that involve clinical depression because if someone becomes reliant upon masturbation to produce dopamine which makes them feel good, situations where they do not have access to such a solution will be very difficult for them.

In situations involving a relationship where one partner is ignoring the other sexually as a result of masturbation hence seeking other means of sexual fulfillment, I can say from personal experience that this is and can be very damaging to any romantic relationship as it leaves one partner in the dark with respect to one of the most important aspects of a relationship. A single person might not consider it an alternative to a healthy social and sex life but if that is not possible for some given reason then there is nothing wrong with it as it is perfectly healthy and the only problem there seems to be is the attitude of people who believe that Women were the downfall of humankind. I myself don't tend to believe that at all, nor do I believe that I was born as the result of sin. After all, I'm a Buddhist and Taoist. No matter what circumstances led to my procreation it was a miracle.

So what else would cause other people to police masturbation and sensuality as if it were illegal to some underground hood? Well for one thing there are groups that operate on a pseudo barter system, whereby a person's identity and output in life is a form of currency to others. In other words, if you could "purchase" the impression of being someone else or being responsible for whatever their output or accomplishments were, you might be more attractive to someone as a romantic or just sex partner than you would otherwise. In some groups in certain communities they keep people like "cows", as sources of their social output, to use to fuel their own lives and often those "cows" are rewarded with one night of companionship with a member of their preferred sex. If someone doesn't play along with that reward scheme, that undermines their entire barter system economy that relies on people that these groups label as "cows" whom they use to fuel their lives and quite often dispose of their "crap".

I've never been a part of any such thing myself, but I often have my output stolen from me as if I was a "cow" to fuel the lives of others and often without any kind of compensation, considering that much of the best of me I share freely at Shhhh! Digital Media through my books and stories (some of which have seemed to cause an underground stir and sensation). I myself haven't engaged in a sexual relationship or any kind of companionship for more than eight years. Anything of that nature and I'm literally dancing by myself. So in such cases, there are people that believe that if you do, it undermines their underground barter system economy by doing so as they believe that you're taking the rewards without paying for them if you catch my drift. To tell you the truth I had no idea that such a thing existed until fairly recently, though it is something which I'd never take part in myself.

In addition and somewhat ironically, the girlfriend with which I was partnered years ago where I took my sexuality to masturbation rather than sharing my affection had been in a relationship sometime before that with someone who was involved in making adult film content. I personally have nothing against that at all as long as it involves consenting adults who are fully aware of what is happening in terms of the production and where and how it will be distributed and/or sold.

Sometime after breaking up with said Woman (whom was a trained and certified professional and had no involvement with adult entertainment herself), I began experiencing the efforts of a group of people whom attempted to swap my identity with his. In fact, I'd noticed that a group was doing the same thing with some of my other prior girlfriends and even my former friends. They were taking the worst of repute and giving it to me, while taking the best of my repute and accomplishment and giving it to them. This is a group that has been doing this in Toronto for some time and with many people involved. Almost as if they were erasing me by taking everything good from me and then piling every thing from others' lives onto me. This was also in the midst of 8 years of homelessness where many people tried to apply an identity and impression that was not my own, including trying to give others the impression that I'd been to prison before, was a pimp and had cocaine or crack cocaine addiction issues despite the fact that none of that has ever been a part of my life. Ironic too that this all occurred during and sometime after being at the lowest point of my life.

So recently (this past weekend) I was feeling very frisky having been single and alone for more than eight years. Its not like I've ever been a womanizer, misogynistic or promiscuous and I've never had drinking and driving charges in my life. In fact for most of my life I've been a Gentleman if not a bit shy who has had his identity stolen many times to fuel the lives of others, being given the identities of others that did not apply. What I'm trying to say is that there's no good justification for forcing me into living single and impoverished while my books and efforts are used to fuel the lives of people who are almost always much better off than myself and whom give nothing in return (though I would never ask).

So this weekend, feeling very frisky I decided to venture out into the world of adult entertainment online, which I do occasionally when I feel that way. I find myself most attracted to hypnosis and sometimes Japanese Hentai type fetish things, though of a more romantic and adult nature (ie I'm not a fan of things focused around young school girls or anything of that nature). I'm more into the situational role play, that could be in an adult movie just as it might be couple role play for a night's romantic interlude. In terms of physical features, I always notice a Woman's face first and it is the most erogenous and beautiful part of her. I tend to like Women with smaller breasts and most often leggy Women who like wearing pantyhose (something that is quite a turn on for myself). Much of the entertainment I peruse is Japanese because they seem to have the market cornered on hypnosis related role play, and they seem to have a firm grasp of what turns me on, though I don't like humiliation, torture, severe bondage or tentacles (sorry Doctor Zoidberg) but that doesn't change the fact that the Woman whom is the object of my affection is Mandarin Chinese.

So I partook of that kind of online entertainment this weekend, and low and behold I started experiencing harassment from my neighbours as if they knew what I was checking out. I have no guilty conscience when it comes to that sort of thing at all as I don't feel that Women owe god or humanity anything with regard to the original sin, nor do I believe that our bodies are instruments of the devil and sources of sin. I have a theory and that is that people of that ilk are so vocal when it comes to sin because they don't want lovers thinking about each other, or the object of their affection. They want lovers thinking about them and that's because they want to share in whatever pleasures a couple (or a solitary person) experiences without suffering the consequences of "sin" according to the confines of their religion or belief. So in a way its a form of rape that occurs through the walls of residence between the abusive people who start such distraction and harassment against those who are in the privacy of their own apartment doing their own thing, with or without a partner.

In fact, they don't want other people who aren't burdened by the guilt of sexuality to be able to choose their own sexual partners, but instead would rather their sex partners be forced upon them according to the rules of blood, culture and their religion. In other words its wrong that because I'm Caucasian that my love interest is Mandarin Chinese, but if my love interest was another different culture that said religion found more acceptable me being with, it would be alright. In my case and because I am absolutely against their violation of others' rights and privacy, they instead try to take it from me by harassment and abuse when they suspect that I am being frisky.

Funny, but I have no qualms at all speaking about such a topic and I don't feel the slightest bit embarrassed about it either because this is something that needs to be confronted not just for myself but for others for whom this is a problem. I mean if my neighbours were doing the wild thing, I'd never start abusing or harassing them because I wanted to be a "through the wall, uninvited unicorn" (unicorn I believe is slang for a third person in a sexual encounter). I'm only into one on one in the same living space and privately, not involving others not to mention I'm not the kind of person that is into last minute hookups. I like getting to know my potential love interest for a while before anything happens and certainly if it is going to involve anything kinky, like role play it would be something that would be discussed (though likely not planned) in advance and only with mutual consent.

So I have a feeling that there are probably many other people out there who experience the same thing from their local branch of this cult and that makes speaking out about this topic necessary. At fifty years old, intimacy (albeit with a loving partner or by oneself) is of a particularly high value to myself and because it doesn't happen often that makes more important to speak out about such things. Meanwhile the same cult are using my life to fuel their lives and once again giving nothing in return for what they take. As I said, they're using me as a "cow", and I don't say that as being anyone else but myself. I'm Brian Joseph Johns just to be clear.

So over the weekend and today there were a few stabs and attacks to do with my lifestyle and past (someone made reference to a power plant company for which my ex-girlfriend used to work as if to open up some woulds). I can only hope that she is alright, especially after my neglect of her (meaning not giving her the attention, both in terms of effort in the relationship and intimately that she deserved from someone who loved her). Regardless, my love interest is Mandarin Chinese and I will not change that for anyone.

So if you happen to be up in the air on this issue, don't let other people make up your mind for you. If you enjoy it and it makes you feel good, then there's nothing wrong with it but be prepared to be "policed" by zealots and nut-bars who feel they were put on the planet to do "god's" work, keeping Women indebted to a society that degrades them and takes away rights related to their bodies and minds while keeping their role in terms of their own pleasure relegated to procreation only. I have a feeling that god is of our ancestor's invention rather than our ancestors being invented by him. Another irony is that god the creator is a man, yet it is Women who carry a newborn in their body for nine months while in ancient history the men either disappeared to make as many copies of themselves with other Women as possible, or the good ones stuck around and worked together with the Woman to provide a safe environment for a baby to grow healthily. Like I always say, sincerity before polarity. I say what I mean and mean what I say. I mean I hope that my friends didn't put me through something like this expecting that I would somehow show up happy when they reintroduced me to a past lover and then tried to help me rebuild. I wouldn't accept nor would I be willing to forgive for what I experienced over the last twenty years, especially the sabotage of my relationship with someone Mandarin Chinese. Especially those people who believed that I was being "mind controlled" or "possessed" for all these years. Now that I know how you operate, I'd say the question is, what am I going to do with that knowledge.

Enough for now.

Brian Joseph Johns
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